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December 30, 2006
Random thoughts
I was at a party last night. And my friend mentioned something to me about seeing my ex with his new girlfriend at a different party, so of course I have been thinking about that a little bit.
I've refrained from posting in this blog about this topic because I didn't want to create uneccessary drama, but I'm not naming names, so I think it should be okay. I'm just tired of keeping up the happy face while squashing my emotions.
We've been broken up for almost 4 months now, and I'm working on moving on. It just came as a huge shock to me when I found out he had a new girlfriend, so relatively soon after we broke up (I found out he was dating someone about 2 months after we split up, after a 2+ year relationship). And given what I know about the past of this person, I am sure they were dating for longer than they had made public. Part of what bothered me so much was that it made me feel like I was nothing to him, that he would commit himself to someone else so fast. I'm not saying that's what he intended or how he really felt, it's just how it made ME feel. And I'm just trying to deal with that.
Do I know that we're too different and that this is better for both of us in the long run? Of course I do. I'm tired of people saying things to me like "fuck him" or "fuck her" or things of that nature. Sometimes I'm not looking to my friends to actually say anything. I'm just looking for someone to just be there and listen while I talk and/or cry. Just ignoring the feelings without working through them isn't going to help me at all.
I've been out on a few dates, not many. Mostly still working a lot. But I actually shot my short movie (and did the grown up thing and gave him credit for helping to come up with the idea). I submitted it to the Tromadance film festival and I am pretty sure it's going to get in. And I've discovered that my brother is amazingly creative and has all kinds of great ideas for movies. I'm about to take two weeks off work to go to Utah. I'm going to hang out with some friends and then do the whole Tromadance thing. I'm working on moving on with my life, I just have to work through these feelings too.
Posted by shmecky at 10:34 PM | Comments (0)
December 12, 2006
This is why I love Brennan Clark and Trent Haaga
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December 10, 2006
oh, I almost forgot
I started my day out by falling down the stairs. My jeans were so long, they got caught under my foot, and then I fell down the stairs. No immediate injuries were noticed, but tonight I've got a little sore spot when I flex my foot. It's not too bad, and I'm not working tomorrow, so it will be okay. I just felt kinda stupid when I tumbled down the stairs. I was scared it was a bad omen for the rest of the day. But it wasn't!
Posted by shmecky at 10:20 PM | Comments (0)
YAY!
It went great. It was fabulous. I don't think Trent thinks I'm too unprofessional.... and he was awesome!!! As was Ellen. And everybody that came to help out! And even those (JJ) that couldn't make it but helped out beforehand! And my brother for letting me use his house. And Trisha for helping me feed everyone and for writing the script!
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December 09, 2006
Nervous
I am shooting my short tomorrow.
I am so nervous, I feel like I am going to puke.
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December 05, 2006
Irrititating work things
I've been meaning to post this as a blog entry for as long as I have had a blog, but I always forget. Yesterday I even wrote it down so I wouldn't forget.
I really, really hate it when people come in and ask me, "What size shoe does a (insert age here) wear?"
It makes me want to reply, "Well, what size do most 21 year old women wear? Right, they all have different sized feet."
Instead, I usually cock my head to the side, and tell them that it really just depends on the size of the child. That my nephew was seven when I started working at Payless and he wore a size 13 or 13.5, but his little brother is 4 and is in 11 and 11.5 and will probably be in bigger sizes than his brother was at seven. And to please either bring the child in and we can measure their foot, or they can even trace an outline of the foot to bring in and we can measure that.
I really do like parts of my job. I wouldn't have stayed with it so long if I didn't. It's just the dumb things that people ask me that aggravate me so much!
Posted by shmecky at 03:59 PM | Comments (1)
What a nice surprise!
I just had flowers delivered to me!
I was quite puzzled when the doorbell rang, as I did not order a pizza and was not expecting any packages.
I opened the door, and there was a flower delivery person, with a HUGE thing of pointsettias for me. I was puzzled even more, because of all the people in my life, I cannot imagine any of them that would send me flowers.
So I looked at the card.
It was from a church. A church that is having some sort of religious conference on Sunday. A church that sent out a card with a typo on it, listing my home phone number as one of the ways to contact them to register.
I thought that was very sweet, and I will be taking them to work to try and brighten up our back room.
Posted by shmecky at 03:53 PM | Comments (0)