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November 24, 2006
Can't sleep
According to my computer clock, it is 2:43am. I have my alarm set for 5am to get up and get ready for work because my store opens at 7am tomorrow (well, really today).
But I can't sleep.
I've got all kinds of jumbled thoughts running through my head. I thought maybe, if I typed them out, they would go away and let me at least take a nap.
I'm planning on shooting a short movie in just over two weeks and I still don't even have the lead actress cast or most of my crew or anything. I'm still debating on my shooting location too. It will get done, and it will be awesome and I will submit it to Tromadance, and it will get in and people will love it.
I've been listening to a lot of Chicago in my car lately (because my Poultrygeist soundtrack is in my store). While driving home from outlet mall shopping and singing along, one little line in one little song really stood out to me:
"After all that's been said and done, you're just a part of me I can't let go"
And I realized that is me. Not just in the relationship that I am no longer in. But with everything. Even things I know I should let go of, but still cling to for dear life. I think I need to change this.
I also had a recent disappointment that left me feeling very inadequate and insecure, but that's pretty much the norm for me lately anyway. I hate looking at myself in the mirror, but at the same time I don't do anything to change my weight. I know what I need to do, exercise more and eat less, yet I choose not to. So, some part of me must want to keep the weight on.
Okay, I hope I can sleep now...
Posted by shmecky at 03:01 AM | Comments (1)
November 12, 2006
exchange vs. refund
It really bothers me when a customer comes in, obviously wanting to do a return or exchange, I say "Oh do you have an exchange today?"
"Yes."
They set the shoes on the counter and just kind of stand there.
"Were you going to look for anything else today?"
"No. I just want my money back."
I really have to restrain myself so I don't say "Then you don't want an exchange you moron! You want a refund!"
Posted by shmecky at 02:55 AM | Comments (1)
November 09, 2006
so it's cheesy...
And the lyrics don't totally fit, but fuck it.
When you called me up this morning,
Told me bout the new love you found,
I said I'm happy for you,
I'm really happy for you.
Found someone else,
I guess I wont be coming round.
I guess it's over, baby;
It's really over, baby, whoa...
And from what you said
I know you've gotten over me;
It'll never be the way it used to be.
So if its gotta be this way,
Don't worry, baby, I can take the news okay.
But if you see me walking by,
And the tears are in my eyes,
Look away, baby, look away.
If we meet on the streets someday,
And I don't know what to say,
Look away, baby, look away.
Don't look at me;
I don't want you to see me this way.
When we both agreed as lovers,
We were better off as friends,
That's how it had to be,
Yeah, that's how it had to be.
I tell you I'm fine
But sometimes I just pretend;
Wish you were holding me,
Wish you were still holding me, whoa...
I just never thought,
That I would be replaced so soon;
I wasn't prepared to hear those words from you.
I know I wanted to be free;
Yeah, baby, this is how we wanted it to be.
But if you see me walking by,
And the tears are in my eyes,
Look away, baby, look away.
If we meet on the streets someday,
And I dont know what to say,
Look away, baby, look away.
Don't look at me;
I don't want you to see me this way.
Posted by shmecky at 02:12 AM | Comments (0)
November 02, 2006
Bill Clinton called me the other day...
You can tell it's election time and that there are hotly contested races when the former president of the United States calls you. Granted, it was just a recording, and I hung up before I could hear what he had to say. The next day, Anne Northup called me. Same deal, recording, hung up on it.
Tonight, though, I have been getting angry. I saw three commercials that were anti-Baron Hill. Because he voted against prohibiting the sale of violent and sexually explicit movies and video games to children. I haven't exhaustively researched the issue (especially since Baron Hill and Mike Sodrel are in Indiana, and I am in Kentucky, so I can't vote for them), but one article I found on the subject said that Hill voted "in 1999 against an amendment to a juvenile crime bill that would have prohibited the sale of violent and sexually explicit movies and video games to teenagers." The amendment failed on first amendment grounds.
I'm not a super political person, but this ad has just been pissing me off. Mostly because parents should be policing their own children. When I was younger, we always had the computer in a "public" place of the house. I never had a computer in my bedroom until I was in college. Our game systems were the same way. I did have a tv and vcr that I bought in high school with my own babysitting money, but my parents didn't extend cable to my room until I was in college, and would look at what movies and stuff I would buy.
I know that if a kid wants to play violent video games or watch sexy movies, they are going to find a way to do it without getting caught. I'm not really good at putting my thoughts into words here, so I'll use a quote from "Blame Canada," from the South Park movie:
Shame on Canada
For...
The smut we must stop
The trash we must bash
The Laughter and fun
Must all be undone
We must blame them and make a fuss
Before someone thinks of blaming uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuus!!!!
Because, in the South Park movie, the parents were too busy trying to blame other people instead of actually being parents to their children. And that is why the ad makes me so mad. Parents should take some responsibility for their kids and not try to make the government do it.
Posted by shmecky at 11:26 PM | Comments (1)