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September 22, 2006
I am a dork
Well, first, I updated my myspace blog, but forgot to update this one. I have been feeling a lot better. Thanks everyone that emailed me.
Now, onto my dorkiness.
I've been watching Celebrity Duets. I love Hal Sparks and want him to win. So last night, I voted for him. For two hours. He made it to the finals tonight!
Good thing it was a toll free number....
Posted by shmecky at 10:25 PM | Comments (0)
September 10, 2006
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Normally I try to keep as much real emotion out of my blogs. But for whatever reason, I decided the entire world can see how I am really feeling this time.
Andrew broke up with me last night. He said that our relationship is broken and he doesn't know how to fix it. I'm 27 and have two long-term relationships to show for it. Not that I wanted like a billion ltrs or anything. But I figured by this age I'd be close to getting married... and heaven knows I'm not getting any younger and I actually want kids at some point.
I just feel like I'm a fuckup at life, in general. I was too chickenshit to go away to college, so I got a fairly useless degree here in town. I've been too chickenshit to move away and try to work in a field that actually interests me. Instead, I sell shoes. And I work damn hard at my job. Which may be part of why my relationship with Andrew failed. Oh, who am I kidding. I know it's part of the reason. I'm terrible with my finances and it seems like I have this credit card debt that just won't go away, no matter how hard I try to pay it down. And so I work my ass off, because I actually have a decent work ethic.
Random thought that just entered my head: I guess it was about a month ago, I got mad at Drew because he hadn't come to see my new store yet. I was actually excited to show him the cool new register and stuff. I am such a dork.
I had a train of thought for a minute there, but it's just totally derailed now.
But yes, I feel like a screw up. My sister is celebrating her 12th year of marriage today. She has four great kids that I love a lot (despite the fact that Caleb was wanting to run around naked yesterday). My little brother is getting married in March. Even my older brother is currently married and has two beautiful girls (although notice I used the word "currently"... but this is about me wallowing in my own misery).
I'd like to say I don't know why I can't find someone to settle down with. But I know that a lot of the fault lies with the fact that I do suck at my finances. And at 27, I still live with my parents because of the stupid credit card debt. And I fear change. And blah blah blah.
Maybe it's time for me to get off my ass and get a job I feel passionate about. I mean, I love shoes and all, but customer service is NOT what I want to do forever.
I think I'll stop rambling and try to go back to sleep. I diasbled comments because I don't want anyone leaving pity comments. Yes, this is my woe is me blog, but eventually things will get better. I think.
Posted by shmecky at 04:44 AM
September 08, 2006
Debilitating vertigo
Actually, my vertigo hasn't been that debilitating. I was having a little bit of vertigo on Monday, which I attributed to being slightly hungover from Sunday. But seeing as it is now Friday, I had to face facts and admit that I have yet another ear infection. So, I called my doctor and he called in some antibiotics for me. Hooray. So now I'll just keep taking anti-vert as though it's been pulled from the market.
And then I get to go back to work on Monday. Hooray for selling shoes! I need to figure out what the hell else I am going to do with my life... oh and that reminds me, I need to call a certain voice actor's agent and see how much it's going to set me back to have him read two lines for my little short.
Posted by shmecky at 05:05 PM | Comments (0)
September 05, 2006
DragonCon
DragonCon
So, I got back from DragonCon yesterday. I got to hang out with Arvid and Mike and Steven, so it was a mini-Poultrygeist reunion. We also got to do an interview with an internet radio station. Which I was glad for, because Lloyd had a Tromette (one of the members of Grotesque Burlesque) sit in on the interview with him, and even though she was a really nice girl and had a really nice rack, she didn't know some of the stuff that needed to be said. So, Arvid Mike and I got to pimp out Poultrygeist about an hour and a half later.
I will also say that Lloyd kind of hurt my feelings, as the G.B. are a local (to Louisville) group, and said that the lovely Tromette could lead the fight in Louisville for independent cinema. After I've been calling and emailing Baxter Ave. every week to make sure they are still going to show the Pgeist! I know, boobs are important and that Lloyd loves them, but it made me feel like I was being put out to pasture or something.
I also got to see a lot of my DragonCon friends again, and that was nice. And I won a Red Dwarf date book thing. And if Dustin ever reads this, thanks a lot for not showing up.
And now I'm on vacation for the rest of the week!
Posted by shmecky at 01:28 PM | Comments (0)