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February 23, 2006
Surreal
The last week and a half has been a total blur, and now everything seems completely surreal.
The family has all come, and gone, with the exception of my brother, Brian, who is leaving in a week (both my older brothers will be flying back and forth for quite awhile). RIght now we're taking care of mom, and cleaning out Dad's office. It, just like his garage, and his workshop, is a mess. Packrat to the nth degree.
Most of the time the reality is there, hovering over my head, but I just let it hang there. As far as sifting through my dad's stuff, I've already gotten past the fact that he's gone. It's weird. Brian has said that he feels like a little kid sneaking through his parents stuff, but I haven't felt that way. Most of what we've found is trash, or old, OLD receipts that need shredded, but mixed in with all of that stuff, we'll occasionally come across a gem. Usually a picture, but sometimes a momento of another sort, and we smile, or laugh, or just enjoy reliving a part of our lives, again. Brian found a Valentine's card, for my mom that had not been filled out, yet. He gave it to her, and she seemed to cherish that, more than anything else we'd shown her that we'd found. A card for her, that he should have had the opportunity to fill out, and give her, but wasn't able to, because he left two days too soon.
Except for the strength I've found to sort through his stuff, it still hasn't completely hit me yet. It comes and goes, in waves, but I'm a long way off from truly understanding, and accepting, the fact that he's gone.
Posted by Romy at February 23, 2006 10:17 AM
Comments
Oh man, that's really sad. I hope you pull through OK.
Posted by: Adam Villani at April 11, 2006 11:29 AM