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November 21, 2003
Friday, 11:37am
So, I'm coming off of a nice bit of food poisoning, and boy was that a hoot.
Current ponderings include but are not limited to:
1. Relating to people as me, which is becoming difficult at times. I have no interest in alot of stuff that people are spending brain obsession time about, and I find it hard to show false enthusiasm. It's not that I don't care about people... I do, greatly. It's that I'm way far out of caring about the ego or anyone else's ego or anything that shows ego prominently. So one can see my dilemma, as most people don't care to seperate from the ego, rather they'd prefer to feed it. So, I'm seeking my balance in communication so that I can inspire and share joy and whatnot, while refraining from supplying ego food to the masses.
It's tricky. I'm really beginning to get why people who truly study meditation and zen and such like to go and live silently alone. One can do less damage that way, and leave a small footprint on the Earth itself.
2. That leads me to the footprint concern... I find that just in simple living, I'm still contributing to destruction of the planet. I'm not sure where that's going... back to vegitarianism, I feel, and I don't know what else. Again, if I lived on top of a mountain and co-existed with nature, would that really solve it? I suppose I'm just saddened by seeing how little alot of humanity really even thinks about what the amount of trash they throw out each week really means to the Earth.
3. I drop into meditation for hours at a time these days... and my yoga is going deeper and deeper. The amount of opening in my body and mind freaks me out a bit here and there, but it's right. Another thing I was thinking about - those folks who do go up on top of mountains and are only studying spiritual aspects of life, are they losing part of the practice by seperating themselves from the rest of humanity? Or are they taking a step that deepens the practice by seperating themselves from the rest of humanity? I find that I'm challenged greatly with all of my practices by doing them in the middle of LA. If I can keep my peace in the midst of chaos, wouldn't it stand to reason that I can keep my peace in solitude? Perhaps it's the punk rock in me... I'm not sure... but I do enjoy being as zen as possible in the middle of one of the most ego-driven cities in the world.
4. That's it for now. My brain is processing random theories of detachment. It's fun, and quite enlightening. Especially since it allows me to really see people. Being detached is one of the most liberating things ever, especially since discovering that being detached has nothing to do with lessening the ability to have love all over life.
Rock on.
Posted by kam at 11:53 AM | Comments (4)
November 12, 2003
Wednesday, 11:29pm
I work with some really spectacular people.
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November 11, 2003
Tuesday, 10:52pm
There's some shit changing... not sure what's what, but I know something is going on. I'll have more to say on this topic as soon as I figure out what the topic actually is.
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November 10, 2003
Monday, 11:04pm
Dude. I just went to see Cyndi Lauper at the Roxy, and she is truly aMAZing. She's a woman who knows how to express herself and it was truly inspiring to be in her presence. Very cool.
In other news, I'm working on some tattoo designs for Ramona. It's challenging... I've done plenty of tattoo design for human skin, but never for car skin. A whole new dynamic, really, and I'm digging the challenge. Somehow I must combine the spirits of Punk Rock, Martial Arts, Yoga, and a few other ideas into a sleek, fluid design that looks really fucking rad on the side of a Mini.
Also, good to know, is that I now have a helicopter simulator for my computer. The joystick just got hooked up, and I'm ready to go and check out the cockpit of the Apache. I feel that within the next couple years, I'll be searching out my instructor and finally taking a chopper to the sky. It's been on my dream list ever since I saw H.M. Murdoch fly like a looney in the A-Team. Ah... as a sign from the Universe, a chopper just flew overhead out my window. I love this fucking city.
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November 02, 2003
Sunday, 3:02pm
I just blogged in and seem to have forgotten what it was I was going to blog about. Funny, that.
I was blessed by the best, yesterday, as I got to play the role of "punk rock car fairy" for Amy's daughter. Rocksie has a new punk rocker to teach. Beauty. Ramone, my punk rock Mini, is rad. We're getting more comfortable with each other by the minute. Sir Glen, a Los Angeles Ninja, is on his way over to meet Ramone. We're going to Target so I can purchase a bonsai tree. One would think purchasing a bonsai tree wouldn't entail going to Target, but one would be mistaken.
More Bruce thoughts - for a bit, Ramone thought he might be a Bruce, but then realized that if he was a Bruce, he'd be yellow with black stripes. Plus, we've been listening to the Ramones alot on the road.
Another cool thing: I bought a pair of JEANS today. Dude. I haven't had any desire for JEANS in years. I've only wanted sweats. Shorts. Yoga. Today I had the urge for a good pair of jeans and they're pretty sweet. I forgot how good JEANS feel.
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